I'm appalled,angry and dreadfully melancholic.At?how people take life so lightly,at suicidal thoughts,and intimidation in the worst manner.I hate the feeling of being threatened,the feeling of uncertainty and responsiblity that is not of mine.The thought of someone using his life to threaten me to compliance is plain vicious.Each to his own yoke.

Right,carnal self talking just now.I figure God had a reason when he asked us to love others like ourselves,it is difficult but not impossible.Honestly,i'm troubled by all the happenings of late.Just a slight breeze of dissension has drawn up lots of sinful thoughts and tested my faith to the max.I'm ever holding on to the verse 'do not let your hearts be troubled,trust in God,trust also in Me'.

God is gracious and patient.Even as tempers flare and emotions run wild,Proverbs 15 says,' A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger'.Aahh...my God is indeed wise.
Even when things cause me to doubt,or find it hard to love others for who they are,
1 John 4:19 simply says 'We love because He first loved us'. Amen,ahaha.

In times of these,i'm truly thankful.I'm equally competitive and driven,and what if I didn't know this God who sees not my grades,not my appearance,not my heart but just loves me for the very way i am? I wouldn't have been much different,i suppose.He gives chances AND choices,the very same way i have to give that someone a chance,however difficult it may be.

I suppose God is throwing a personal challenge at me,one that will be a test to my faith and reaches out far from my comfort zone.At the very moment,i'm doubting His plans tremendously. Will He honour me in my studies and everything else if i remain faithful?

I want to cry and grow at the same time.

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6