I have a fraternal twin.He's so long lost and we share so many traits that we're starting to doubt our parents.Fabrication of birthcerts,photos,ultrasounds.The X-Files.
I mean where on earth can you find a more arrogant,egoistical,self conscious,greedy,intelligent,sarcastic,quick wit,boring person like me?Here,apparently.And he can actually survive the sharp lashing of my tongue and lash me back. LASH ME BACK?!?!
okay,besides that,we have a thing for sore throats,FOOD,dust,and lots of mockery and irony built into our throat-cutting personality.my twin happens to lurve oregano,my mostest-favouritest-herb in the world.and he's more driven than i am.

Nonsense aside,Easter has been great.God is real and i know it.But beyond the boundaries of my pea sized brain,God is love but occurences of late are defying this Truth.quote mylene:the dirty water starts to show when you move on to another level.My issues:i know how much my Jesus loves me,but i cannot return His love,and because i'm not assured of His love,i cannot love others,and so i dread being a DGL.This is the stark truth,and i can only conclude this past year has been based on my own strength and doing for the sake of doing.

I want to meditate upon the Word,but the distractions are many.i'm frustrated as a christian,as a student,as a friend,as a sister,disciple,discipler and as a daughter.Time does not heal wounds but covers them up while it rots and gets worse inside.There are decisions to be made,difficult ones,faith stretching ones.and the one issue that is longstanding?not how much can i or do i want to love Jesus,but how much He loves me,and how much i know of it.

Easter has not transformed me in a night,but it's a tiny milestone.but my insecurities are a teeny-weeny bit diminishing.pray with me.